Shit comes at you and you need to deal with it, that’s what defines you how you deal with it. You know I can’t talk my way out of this. I just wanted to say how sorry I’m, this whole thing has got all nuts.  May be this is a waste of time. I‘m halfly decent type person, feeling pity rusty right now. Because of this life I always figure out time to think about you. Just don’t give upon me, I’m still ME…we are still US.