I'm REALLY sorry and I'm trying to apologize to you in a real way. I want to understand why you hate me. It hurts because I know what was going through me when it happened.  Obviously I miscalculated a few things. I was glad that I had a pain, and sorry for still bearing it. You're the first person that I've wanted to tell that to. I was blind, but now I see.Being in two places at once ain't letting me sleep. I'm too young to be filled with regret.